As I lay in bed listening to rain bounce off the windows and the bright cored leaves on the trees, I'm reminded by the saying or maybe it's just a statement, "when it rains it's our loved ones tears from heaven." You know as a little girl after losing my brother I thought hmm that's kinda cool even though I figured it was impossible, well as I sit here and listen I don't want them to be tears, I want only happiness and life and love up there beyond the clouds. I want my dad to be smiling and laughing his contagious laugh. I want him happy and watching from above all that he is missing out on here. I just want the rain to be what shall wash my worry, and grief away. Yes that's it I want that!