Today is your Birthday

Another Birthday to celebrate you is gone, another year to celebrate the day you entered this world is gone, but the empty feeling of not having you here still remains and dam does it hurt. 

I remember always getting you that Daddy and daughter Birthday card, the ones where I cried reading it picking it out and you crying it opening and reading it. God to just have that single moment one more time. 

How I struggle with my grief this time of year, how I once again feel like I'm caught in a circle of grief where I can't break through. I cry at the little things and the big things too. How does one escape this circle of grief but I guess you never do it just sometimes is easy and other times it's harder. 

Anyway today I cried for you, today I smiled remembering you and your birthdays we celebrated today I realized my love for you still grows each day. I hope you felt the love for Earth.